A Career Interlude

It's a muted Monday... not a manic one.

A blanket of clouds holds the warmth of the day and last night's rains washed away the sins of the past. The ocean is calm but there is a restlessness beneath the waters that swell and roll yet never break the surface.

But it is there and I can feel it.

I'm running on the sand as the sun sticks its head out of the blanket of clouds throwing diamonds on the water. The rolling restlessness is accentuated by the glare of the day.

Reaching down I grab a belly full of fat and it is soft in my hand. A few weeks ago it was hard and I wasn't able to do it. I am literally changing. I'd stopped running and it ended up not being a good thing so I'm back at it and all of the positive things are returning. My legs are strong again, the breathing is regular, the sweat is good and the contemplation is healthy. I'm feeling and looking like myself again.

It's as if I'm training for something.

In the movie "The Exorcist" an overweight detective finds a Priest running around a track and stops him.

"Have --- have we met?" asked the Jesuit.

"No Father. No but they said you look like a boxer ..."

That scene has stuck with me through the years.

A Priest is in training for things that Seminary could never prepare him for. Deep inside he knows to train for something, though God only knows what and God's not sharing. So in spite of the comforts of his religion and the safety of his church he has a rolling restlessness inside. There is more to come in his life though he has no idea what, so he prepares himself as best he can.

Laying in bed last night, I listened to the rain fall. The windows were open and I could see the silhouettes of Palm Trees dancing in the wind. It had been a wonderful day, full of love and celebration but I lay in the darkness tossing and turning thinking about work. Professionally I am restless. There is so much more for me to give.

My career is in-between things. After an incredibly successful and endeavors in most everything so far ... I've dabbled in consulting and spent a wonderful year with the International Street Medicine Institute helping build a foundation for it. I've been writing and reconnecting with my spirituality.

Personally, Sarah and I are making a home and weaving new things out of old which has been wonderful. We celebrate daily and look forward to everything we're doing and going to do. The Carnival of Friends are terrific and island life remains holy and happy. The personal side of life is the best its ever been!

Professionally though it feels like an interlude. ACT I of my career was a blast though it's now plainly over. I've been waiting in the wings for ACT II to get started. I am ready! Sarah's ready! Our partners are ready!  Lot's of people are anticipating what's coming!

So I prepare myself as best I can, rolling with the restlessness that's just below the surface of creativity and the joys that come from making the world a better place.

Soon, unexpectedly and before I'm totally ready, it will break free and we're going to surf the wild and wonderful ride of the career ahead of us.