I sympathize greatly with his struggle to accept death, almost welcome it, as a simple part of the journey of life.
Of course, my favorite author also said that "resurrection means the worst thing is never the last thing", and what's not to like about that if you're getting close to the end.
The worst thing, dying, is not the last thing.
He says the love of God is going to do something else, but what that's going to be is anybody's guess.
I find comfort in these thoughts, so long as they extend to everyone, regardless of their faith, ethnicity, education or if they believe in anything at all.
Throughout my life I've believed in the teachings of Jesus. I tried to keep them as my guiding lights in the sometimes dark worlds I've lived through, and that has worked well for me.
It's been messy as Hell, but it got me this far and I am thankful for that.
The resurrection of Jesus wasn't really part of my faith system, a part of the story that I needed.
How to live my life was more important to me than if it goes on somehow, into eternity.
And that's precisely where I am now as I prepare myself as best I can for the "worst thing."
It doesn't matter to me if there's anything else.
What a life I've had, far more epic Greek Comedy Tragedy than mere boring biography.
I did a lot but ended up madly in love, happily raising our love child, with friends who support our crazy ways to squeeze every ounce of life out of the time I have left.
As funny as it seems, I am living my best life with multiple cancers, a frail and failing body, and a mind that isn't as sharp as it used to be.
Sarah and Che keep me inside their protective cocoon of love.
I say that's ending my life on top of the world.
As for what's next?
I don't see how anyone can be disappointed when they die.
You're deader than a doornail when you're buried or burned, and that's that, just dark silence.
There's nothing.
Or something happens.
Either way, I won't be disappointed.
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My Celebration is winding down to the end while Sarah and Che have a whole new life together, coming soon
You can be part of their future at https://gofund.me/ffda4f4b
