And I try.
And I try ...
But I can't get no satisfaction!
It is true.Nobody's satisfied for very long.
I'm sailing through a day and everything feels good, pieces are falling into place and all of that good Karma I've sent out is coming back. I can almost taste how good everything's becoming. One foot is about to hit pay dirt in the Promised Land.
Then something stupid happens.
Something is said that hits me as just plain wrong. The bad dream that kept me awake at night is suddenly real in the daylight. Worries take center stage. My worst fears slam into the good feelings, knocking pieces out of place and it's suddenly raining bad Karma.
"What in the hell just happened?" I say out loud.
There's no one to hear it, except for me.
Or maybe its one of the basic of prayers and I'm asking God to explain why everything just went to shit?
God doesn't reply though while I stand there holding a suddenly empty bag.
Emotion wells out of nowhere and I'm suddenly wiping salt water in my eyes, a dry lump grows in my throat and I can literally feel my heart breaking. An indignant sense of injustice erupts and overwhelms me.
Let's be honest, this happens with far more regularity than those wonderful moments when we're satisfied, happy, content and know without the slightest conviction how much love we have.
So we try ... and we try ... and we try ... but just can't get no damn satisfaction.
This is where faith comes into the picture.
I just have to keep believing.
She still loves me when I'm completely unlovely or unloving back. This idea we've been working so hard on, for so very long, is going to be successful. These hard times will eventually be replaced and everything's gonna be alright. Demons will give way to Angels and bright sunshine casts out all darkness. Good again trumps the bad.
"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for; the evidence of things not seen."
Yep.
So I keep trying ... and I try ... and I try.
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