Monday, July 9, 2012

Really Liking who I am now

As a dreamer of dreams and a traveling man I've chalked up many a mile Read dozens of books about heros and crooks and learned much from both of their styles Yep. Thank you Jimmy Buffett! Christians talk about being re-born and it's true! I'm on my forth or fifth incarnation of me! I used to be somebody else ... a small town Southern Boy in Port Wentworth, Georgia spending my days riding bicycles with my friends, making out with girls behind the elementary school, and stealing all of the American Flags out of the building. Then I became a college student, helped conceive my beloved son Jeremy who became my best pal, learned how to learn, and was booed by the graduating class when I got dilpoma and walked straight out of the door rather than return to my assigned seat. Inexplicably, God told Guy Sayles to tell me to go to Seminary ... so I did and mostly got in trouble, eventually earning two degrees while vandalizing the statue of Billy Graham, throwing a text book on Greek out of the window in protest, and walking out of class if the professor was repetitive or boring. At the same time, God told Guy Sayles to tell me to become a Pastor. I don't think that Guy's ever forgiven God for actually doing it or that God's ever forgiven Guy for actually telling me ... but that's how it happened. And I became a Professional Christian for the next eight years. I got in trouble for a lot of things ... turning Sunday School rooms into apartments for homeless guys, turning the Baptismal Pool into a bathtub, concieving my daughter Kristen and breaking into Russell Bennett's office one night with Claude Drouet and Larry Desolier and putting pages of pornography in each of his thousands of files in his filing cabinet. I did become The Rev. Then I became an Unprofessional Christian, moving to Tybee Island and becoming a President & CEO in Savannah, writing books, helping to concieve Chelsea, running with the Olympic Torch, appearing on the TODAY Show, CNN and speaking at the National Press Club in Washington D.C. I won a bunch of stuff, traveled the world, met famous people ... including the President and ... all it cost was two wives, my mental health and a lot of people who loved me once but don't anymore. That was then. Today I'm a Beach Bum, happily married to Sarah, learning how to talk to little girls again, watering plants, talking to trees, strolling to a sad little holy dock, raising a gay dog, remembering to turn my ear ring everyday, being Chaplain of the Breakfast Club, and wondering how in the hell to sustain this lifestyle for the rest of my life. I don't know. I got more to do. I just don't know what it is yet. Sarah told me the other day that Steve Jobs said "Great Artist have to go away and reinvent themselves." He certainly did. I suppose that's what I'm doing. It does feel familiar. I've been so many people already ... but ... I really like who I am now.