Most of the time I'm wanting things that I don't have yet causing me to fail to appreciate the things I do have now. Yesterday was one of those days. I wanted everything we've been working on finished. I demanded the fruits of our labors NOW DAMMIT! Of course I ended up getting frustrated.
"Why don't you take Goddess for a walk?" Sarah said after I was short with the girls.
What I ended up doing was trying to work through it by sitting out in the front yard with Laurel as she sat in the grass drawing pictures of trees.
Today I'm determined to not repeat the sins of yesterday.
There's only so much I can do to make things happen anyway. Everything happens in its own time anyway. I can't control the future. I either live in this present moment or I screw it up by not celebrating it fully.I want to completely enjoy this day. I'm going to work a little, play a little and love a lot. I'm going to dig my toes in the sand today. I think we'll make Smores tonight over an open fire. I'll have a casual conversation with God, laugh with my friends and enjoy the girls. I'm going to talk to my kids. I'm going to kiss passionately. I'm going to enjoy this place.
Those are the blessings I've counted so far.
I'm not just counting though.
I'm enjoying them.
They're what's mine today!
